Eccentric Soul

Well, this is overwhelming Sa sobrang overwhelming, this will be a late post. It was last January that I came up with a game plan. I have no job, I have no interest or whatever strong desire to start working but I have some applications here and there but there's nothing that really demands me to be active to. I have no idea, real idea what to do. I succumb into reading and harnessing my own personal demands but then I realized I have to do something and that is to maybe just maybe, I have to try taking the exam. I cannot say that I can fully stand on my decision because if you would know me, I'm the most indecisive person you'll ever meet. It is all thanks to Friend (Annalyn) that without her knowing, she made me completely decide to just take the test, just take the risk and try.... I was amazed by her determination to take the exam and enroll in a review center. With Friend's inspiring determination and my best friend's encouragement, I have fully stand ...

Often it seems that you're a blur you move too fast, speeds like you want to eat the world. In a blink of an eye, you have escaped from one point to another and in a moment, I wanna catch up then think again, I can't. You were in your zone of lightning speed, I am in a zone of chilling pill.

Kapag minsan talaga, kinakain ko na lang lahat ng sinasabi ko. Mahirap e. Di lang siguro ako ang ganito. Pero.... Anyway... Kanina sa bayan, nagmamadali akong umuwi, nakapayong, naglalakad, mabigat ang aking bag, kagagaling lang sa simbahan. Nung nasa may tapat nako ng Mcdonald's may truck na lalabas, di magkaigi at kasi naman, maya't maya may nadaang sasakyan, kalsada yon eh. Urong sulong siya.. Di ba kapag dadaan ka at may nakikita kang ganyang sasakyan - yung urong sulong, di mo alam kung dadaan ka na ba o hintayin mo na lang na makadaan o makalabas siya. E ako nga ay nagmamadali, ayon, sumugod ako sa likod nung truck, muntikan nakong maatrasan, nagmala flash ako at tumalon. As in nung dadaan ako, biglang urong yung truck, tumalon ako don sa pataas ng konti na semento at nagtatakbo para di ako maipit. Tapos tsaka pa sumigaw si koya ng "sandali lang!" at pinukpok yung likod ng trak. Nahuli siya ng reaction, dire diretso ako kasi akala ko talaga maiipit na ako. L...

I don't usually post my book haul because I've got more excited to read and be crazy over the books rather than posting it. But this day was kinda different because I have something to share about this day. So before the books (it was just three books tho), I just have to share how my day went.

Ok, this may sound a little bit bias because I am a fan of Sarah Geronimo but I always enjoy good music and beautiful words on it and I must say that this is a really good song. It touches my heart and my soul, in a way, and you listening to this song will struck you hard. I believe that Sarah G's Minamahal may parallel Yeng Constantino's Ikaw. Those are two heartfelt songs that will make you believe na "may forever". I just have to say, kapag minsan, nalulungkot ako kapag sinasabi ng iba na they would support international talents or productions rather than locals' without even a bit of consideration to local films or local music. Wala eh, masyado talagang hanga yung iba sa western culture na wala man lang silang pagnanais na aralin ang sarili nating history because if they do, malalaman nila na Philippines has a rich history and they are beautiful. But that would be for another discussion. OPM pag-usapan natin kasi magagaling talaga ang mga singers and songwr...

After 5 years in Indonesian prison, Mary Jane Veloso was sentenced to die on April 28 because of drug trafficking. Mary Jane was a victim of such crime last 2011. She was just trying to support her family and hope to find a better job in Indonesia when her recruiter deceived her by giving her a suitcase filled with more than two kilograms of heroine. With high hopes of doing a proper job in Indonesia and support her family, landing in the said country, she was shocked and defeated when the authorities found the suitcase with drugs and later on was imprisoned since.  After 5 years, we, the Filipino people, just heard about the situation just now. Maybe if not for some people who knew about this since had an uproar when the Indonesian Pres. Joko Widodo gave the death penalty for Mary Jane. By then, many have rallied in the Indonesian embassy and other places, asking for justice and some, most especially those who cannot rally, are posting prayers and support for the justice for Mary ...

There are three things I do when my life falls apart Number one I cry my eyes out and dry up my heart Not until I do this will my new life start So that’s the first thing that I do when my life falls apart. Oh, the second thing I do is I close both of my eyes And say my thank-yous to each and every moment of my life. I go where I know the love is and let it fill me up inside Gathering new strength from sorrow, I’m glad to be alive. Things are looking up I know above the clouds the sun is shining Things are looking up Love is still the answer I'm relying On Three little things Things are looking up The third thing that I do now when my world caves in, is I pause, I take a breath, and bow and I let that chapter end. I design my future bright not by where my life has been. And I try, try, try, try, try again. Yes I try, try, try, try, try again. Things are looking up I know beyond the dark the sun is rising Things are looki...

I remember, we were just talking about head transplant during psychology class - the possibility of it and the harm it might bring to the people who will be under this operation. There was also one dystopian series that I have read written by Neal Shusterman wherein the society are more invested into developing transplants instead of medicine. They call the process as Unwinding - a bill that suggests deviant teenagers may undergo the said process wherein they donate their body parts and organ (as in everything) in certain people or in an organ bank. Well, that was scary. Anyway, here's the article about the current and will be first ever head transplant:

“People die all the time. Life is a lot more fragile than we think. So you should treat others in a way that leaves no regrets. Fairly, and if possible, sincerely. It's too easy not to make the effort, then weep and wring your hands after the person dies.” ― Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance

They will say "No, you should do this." "No! Do that!" "I think that you're doing it wrong." "What are you trying to do? Don't do that but this, I am sure this is for you." People will just try to dictate your life and you will feel obliged to do it because sometimes you feel like you're not in the position to do something different than what path they are taking or what they have taken. People will spill you words or plan of action for you without hearing what is it you really wanted in life, not really listening to what is your interest, skills or talents. These are the people you don't have to listen to. They are only minding their own life and don't have any genuine concern with yours. You might thought that they are opportunity makers but they are really just not. They are just people who do things to make themselves feel good, not the people around them. Don't take their advice but appreciate their efforts though.

Monica graduated! Yaaay! But first, let me tell you about Monica. 

I once told by you, a friend, to stop reading wonderful books, theories, histories and myths because it's slowly making me weird which then leads you to stop following my train of thoughts and stories. By then, I understand you because really, I blame myself because I can't stop talking about it even though I can notice that little by little you and the others stop listening while I'm on the middle of my story and that somehow feels painful than anyone could ever know because aside from the fact that they don't listen, that I look silly and weird and ignored, the more painful thing is that friends should be there to support you, may you can be silly or weird, they don't necessarily have to listen but it was a sad feeling of being shut down, as if you don't matter. A friend loves you for who you are, a friend is a person who is always there - weird or not, he/she must understand and accept each other's weirdness and not try to change it and eliminate it. Wha...

March 30, 2015 Last night (or just this madaling araw) I dreamed of me and a friend of mine, hurrying and riding a tricycle but then at the same time, we left it because the tricycle was making us slow. We were in our barangay and I really don't know where we heading. Then, I looked at the sky and saw a crescent moon and a big red moon (or is it the sun or a planet) and I was amazed. I stopped on my tracks and stared at it. I ask about it to other people but they are also full of wonder and don't seem to be worried about it. Then I remember that I am suddenly riding a jeepney, alone with random strangers as passengers. I can still see the moon and the red thing on the sky. The passengers are talking about it and they have their own theory about why such phenomenon happened. They said that the red one was the sun and it seems the night gotten to become longer that the sun rises itself with the moon still on its rightful position. Then there was an eclipse. The red thing was ea...

Well, that vide o was a Ted talk by a brazilian CEO - Ricardo Semler. He practices a radical form of corporate democracy, re thinking everything from board meetings to how workers report their vacation days (they don’t have to). It’s a vision that rewards the wisdom of workers, promotes work-life balance — and leads to some deep insight on what work, and life, is really all about. In a nutshell, this was an inspiring talk, a moving one that I will never forget. Yes, consider watching ted talks as one of my extra curricular activities during my free time(s). I will not go into details about his talk here and how come it was awe inspiring. You can see the transcript here  if you want to read it instead. 

This week I learned that in life, there are no shortcuts and those shortcuts, instead of giving us good results, it often ends up devastatingly. But if you have to start a journey and make a path for your travels, you have to choose the right long road and always always follow your instincts and must know when you should take the plunge.

I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing." ― Neil Gaiman, The Sandman

You ruin your life by tolerating it. At the end of the day you should be excited to be alive. When you settle for anything less than what you innately desire,  you destroy the possibility that lives inside of you, and in that way you cheat both yourself and the world of your potential. The next Michelangelo could be sitting behind a Macbook right now writing an invoice for paperclips, because it pays the bills, or because it is comfortable, or because he can tolerate it. Do not let this happen to you. Do not ruin your life this way. Life and work, and life and love, are not irrespective of each other. They are intrinsically linked. We have to strive to do extraordinary work, we have to strive to find extraordinary love. Only then will we tap into an extraordinarily blissful life." —Bianca Sparacino, How To Ruin Your Life (Without Even Noticing That You Are)  ‪#‎ TodaysMantra‬

"Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be ... and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe." —Andrea Gibson ‪#‎ TodaysMantra‬

The Archived (The Archived, #1) by Victoria Schwab Ratings: ***** (5/5) I am amazed with this book. Maybe it's not that catchy on the first few chapters but the characters will just grow on you that fast and you will just enjoy the rest of the story, the rest of the book. I'll consider it now as one of my favorites. This series is different from the other books that I've read. I cannot totally say that it can be an Urban Fiction because it is more of paranormal or alter universes, things like that, because it talks about the world divided into three: The Outer (well our world), The Archive (where the Histories are kept, like a library) and The Narrows (the place between the Archive and Outer) where can be transported by means of doors and keys. There are also titles of people that play a crucial role in the book: the Keepers, Histories, Crew, Librarians, etc. (or other people I don't know how to call them yet). So what are they? Well, for starters, we believe in ...

Sometimes, I was afraid of praising Him online or praising Him out of the open with easiness because it might end up to be false, a lie or something that I would do just to show off. There's no denying that I believe in His existence. After doubting His presence for mostly of my teen years, I am now a firm believer of something supreme, of high god/s that beyond words could describe, our creator and the one who can listen, shrug, laugh and love on and on and on His own creations. My relationship with Him was too private to share to anyone but His greatness can be shared in words and actions - in the right moment. I believe in Him so much it hurts. I love Him beyond words, actions and thoughts.

When I was a kid, I always love to sing even though my mom doesn't support me or encouraged me when it comes to my voice but I have a toy microphone (tho I don't know who gave it to me) and that was my favorite toy. When I was in grade school, I always love to stay and play alone upstairs. I fancy observing the trees and most especially the wind from the window of the second floor house. You must know that I am weird now and that makes me a weirder kid. I don't mind playing alone or have an imaginary playmates and even talk to trees, love the feel of the wind thinking that it was my friend or even wondered if there were angels and demons fighting in every dark clouds that I see from the sky or when there are little lightnings from it. The little sense of nature that I can see from the windows around the second floor of our house was my entertainment and were my playmates. Upstairs is when I was alone but never felt alone. I might have diagnosed schizophrenia if I'm stil...

I have always been a little bit uncomfortable during Valentine's Day. I mean come on, who would not roll their eyes when they see some sweetness around them (too suddenly, on that day) especially when you're single. If there would be a politically made day or some traditional day, this could be (for me) the corniest one and a little bit illogical though appreciated. I can say sometimes, there comes a point in my life that I was really bitter for this day considering I haven't received a bouquet of roses or expecting anything since day 1 of my life. I mean who would not love roses and chocolates even though it's cliche, who would not appreciate valentine's day if there would be someone to celebrate it with, who would not celebrate it if people will not question you if you suddenly do some grand gesture for a special someone? Maybe people who doesn't have something to receive, to celebrate with and a special someone and that just describes me. But believe me, sinc...

Book Review: Past Heaven by Laura Ward Rating: **** (4/5 stars) "The idea is that once you really love someone, and I mean the kind of love that fills you up from head to toe, it never leaves you. A love like that surrounds you, always. Time, distance, and even death can't end it. That love is Past Heaven."   “The power of love is both inescapable and infinite.”   Elizabeth Atwater was there when her loving husband was murdered during the most important night of his life. The heroic Jack Atwater was shot right in front of her eyes and it breaks her, tear her apart and makes life difficult to live. Without him, how will she ever live normal again, without him, what will happen to their 3 bright boys and his lifelong legacy. But so they say, their love was past heaven. She needs to continue living for their 3 children. With the help of her family and friend Cindy, she'll survive. Reynolds Carter is one of the most sexiest man in Hollywood. In his 40 years of a...

“ It takes a lot of time to be a genius. You have to sit around so much, doing nothing, really doing nothing. ” —  Gertrude Stein

“ I have work to do, and I am afraid not to do it. ” —  John O'Hara

Book Review: Days of Blood and Starlight by Laini Taylor Rating: ***** (5/5 stars) “Once upon a time, an angel and a devil fell in love and dared to imagine a new way of living—one without massacres and torn throats and bonfires of the fallen, without revenants or bastard armies or children ripped from their mothers’ arms to take their turn in the killing and dying.  Once, the lovers lay entwined in the moon’s secret temple and dreamed of a world that was a like a jewel-box without a jewel—a paradise waiting for them to find it and fill it with their happiness. This was not that world.”   I'm one of the many who thought that this book was so much better than the first one. The story in was mind blowing and Taylor's writing became more and more beautiful (I mean, those prose?) when there's no romantic moments between Akiva and Karou  (not that I'm being offensive), the environment was cool, I can actually smell the sandcastle where the chimaera were stayin...

“ You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm. ” —  Colette Source: Goodreads

I am currently updating and merging my book reviews (from goodreads), blog posts (from tumblr) and random words, thoughts and texts (from random notepad, msword, notebooks tho not all) and post it all here just to make this blog alive and to (hmmm) have a single and solid blog this time. I was always so laaazy to write in my journals (sorry promises, you were really meant to be broken) and decided to really (just really) have A blog. I always strive to be a writer but there are days that I haven't written a sentence or a phrase (ha! goodluck for that ambition). But y'know, there are always dark days and days that you will just feel so lazy and do nothing at all and days that you feel so turbo-lized to do everything (sounds bi polar isn't it?). But me having a blog is something that I needed right now. My thoughts for the past few months are really disturbing and so confusing, having no one to actually listen to me ('coz they are all busy) and my reservations about actua...

Book Review: Cruel Beauty (Cruel Beauty Universe, #1) by Rosamund Hodge Rating: ***** (5/5 stars) This book was a beautiful rendition of the fairytale - Beauty and the Beast. Though nothing beats the original, but this book is just so wonderful. 

Leaving me with my own thoughts will be a bad idea. I mean in my situation right now, my thoughts are eating me, my frustrations are building up and the craving for some outdoor activity is just leveling up any minute but right now, I cannot do something to challenge my feet for an outrageous adventure and adrenaline pumped activity so maybe I'll do the "traveling by the seat of my pants" thing and believe that sooner or later, the real adventure will be knocking on my window. If the world will be all about those petty money and industrial activities or things like that, my soul will be weeping with its emptiness of such things but of course, reality isn't all about those things, gosh, the time I have for knowledge and new characters and stories, and those friends and adventure.... yuh, books are the most amazing company and world you'll have.

Book Review:  Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage  by Haruki Murakami  Rating: *** (3/5 stars) "You can hide memories, but you can't erase the history that produced them.”  I always love Murakami's way of writing. He paints the settings of his stories effortlessly and even it was already cliche when it comes in creating his characters, it isn't tiring to read and everytime, he always makes them interesting. Murakami always makes his novel solemn, so soulful and at the same time, there is always a sense of liberation.

In a very sense of a word, you're a loner, yet the silence you hunger you have driven the pavement self motivating, not succeeded you want knowledge, different words and ideas but when you knock it on your mind, didn't absorbed it, lazily knocking the glass in desk, frustrated, didn't understood what to do. Knowing knowledge is power yet you can't give in to the knowledge given you would rather deliver words rather absorbing new words I'll be damned, I'll try again tomorrow

Well, I am still in the state of unemployment. I declined the secretarial job in a supermarket near our home so.... yeah, unemployed. But I don't regret letting that opportunity slipped away because I know that I don't really want it and might end up being regretful doing the job in the end. So here's what happened, I was going to take an exam the day (it was the day after the final interview) when Mama called and told me that a friend of my sister ask her to send my resume to her for the position of HR in a big company. Hearing the name of the company, I hastily said that I want there and not in the place that I was in the moment, waiting for the exam to happened. In that day also, I have to go to a clinic and have a medical exam after that, requirements were hence, a job waiting for me. But I backed out, after taking the aptitude exam, I told the HR that can  I take the medical exam the other day and no contract was asked for me to be signed yet. I was terribly confused...

Book Review: Shadowfever (Fever, #5) by Karen Marie Moning Rating: ***** (5/5 stars) “Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare, addictive ones who just bring out the most. Of everything.  They make you feel so alive that you'd follow them straight into hell, just to keep getting your fix.” Wowwww. I can't believe that I read this series just now. I won't even read it if not for someone who recommended it. Tho I know that some of the covers of the series can be misleading but hey, "Don't judge a book by its cover." KMM have created a fascinating world ("See you in Faery!") and have developed characters that grows on you more and more when you read them on and on. You won't believe that a woman like Mac will be more than just a pretty face and a barbie girl, but Dude, she is really fierce!! I love her! And Jericho Barrons is a type of a male character that you always want...

Book Review: Dark Fever (Fever #1) by Karen Marie Moning Rating: **** (4/5 stars) Well the perks of reading a series late is that you can read it continously and doesn't have to wait a year or two for the next book to be published. Ha! But of course that I became lazyyy to write a review because I don't feel like stopping, update sooner and write a review about it. I mean come on, right after reading the Bloodfever, I want more of Barrons and Mac! Anywayyyy. I was always fascinated with the world of Faery that's why this series will be an amazing read for me. This first book is quite confusing but you'll get a hang of it. The narration was great even though at first I was kinda annoyed because it confuses me but as I said, I've got the hang of it. The Fever Series was about the story of Mac - a sidhe seer, her real identity unknown to her until her sister died and murdered in Ireland. She went to Ireland - her parents disagreeing - and found that her si...

Sometimes, I just want to cuss all day out of frustrations

Terminal stage IV lung cancer patient miraculously cured by cannabis oil - NaturalNews.com (NaturalNews) An Australian woman in her mid-50s recently posted a YouTube video explaining how she has eliminated her stage IV lung cancer with cannabis after being given a death sentence of six months with no treatment. Her oncologist suggested chemo as an option, but it wouldn't cure her cancer. It would only prolong her life a few months with chemo side effects.

Sometimes, it was the fear that stops me in going but it should actually pursue me to continue doing it. Gildarts in Fairy Tail once told Natsu that: " Fear is not evil. It tells you what your weakness is. And once you know your weakness, you can become stronger as well as kinder." People often make fear as a negative emotion, a very intense and sometimes a feeling that other people use to make themselves bigger - throwing fear to others to make them weak and make it an opportunity to kick their dignity and that would give them pleasure, they will think that they have some sort of power. That was a sad thing, and with that, we must learn how to fight with our fears and be on control with ourselves. With fear sometimes, we were under the impression that the situation must be stopped, to give up and lose hope but really it was something that should be a sign that you are aware of your weakness or your limits and that would be a step to surpass your limits and turn your weakness...

So eventually I was scheduled for a final interview today. If passed, I will take an online exam and if it goes well, I will be a store manager secretary. So yeah. So the company is a supermarket, a retail supermarket to be precise. I dunno....I will try to do my best and whatever happens, happen. Wish me luck, reader.

Book Review: Undivided (Unwind, #5) by Neal Shusterman Rating: **** (4/5 stars) Undivided is the last book of the Unwind dystology and it ended in an unexpected turn of events. Well, this is really different from other series. On the middle of the book, I thought there will be no change, there will be no hope...I mean, it almost tear me apart reading the events that follow...that was really frustrating. But of course, there will always be hope and hope was given to the readers on its ending. The book started with almost no change of situation but then within the ending is a fast paced turn of events so you really need to buckle up and ready your tissues. I really love the characters here even the antagonists, even though they are really frustrating, you just can't hate them. That is because even though they are really bad that it makes my head hurts, they are good with being bad and Neal Shusterman have written them well. And of course, you will just love and love our ma...

So today, I will attend an interview (first interview of the year. Ha!). It is a secretarial position for a mall here in batangas (oh yeah, reader, I am from batangas city). Well, I was referred by a friend to a friend so I can't see why not give it a shot? Since I will be having a self review for the upcoming board exam, I will try to find a job here in batangas first. However cliche it is, I will try to do my best (choz) to try and try and do more actions. Sooooo yeah, let's see what will happen. Anyway, I just posted something in instagram and post it here too (that's the picture above, ahuh) so.... 2015 - a fresh start. Oh gosh, I am claiming that this year will be better. No expectations though, just pure hope. 

Book Review: Unsouled (Unwind, #3) by Neal Shusterman Rating: **** (4/5 stars) Just when I thought that I could see a bright path ahead for my beloved characters in this dystology, I end up frustrated in the middle of it, more and more creeped out but good thing, this book ends in a hopeful light in the words of Sonia. You can still see the haunting issue of Unwinding and I am afraid that the revelations and the situation of this is far from getting better and it's just getting worst here. This book still continues the journey of our heroes: Connor, Risa and Lev, faced with new decisions and situations towards with their prime goal: to stop the unwinding. Of course, the evit intent of Proactive Citizenry (shitty) organization is still on a move towards a darker creation, which leaves Cam a possible and terrible fate but I still believe that the pureness of his own soul will save him (I really hope). Connor and Lev, still being followed by the government and juvies, with th...

2015 is a sign for a fresh start. Last year, everything was so fast, everything was running wild and it was sad that I was like a stone in the middle of the year - immovable, unchanging, just letting the events flow while standing still. Sucks. Frustrating. But I've learned a lot. After graduation was a big question mark, a long running thought play and a never ending squirming and anxiety. I tried finding a job (7 interviews, 3 job offers) and unfortunately, after interviews, I failed to be called or I failed to attend the second call. That was my mistake, I let myself be driven with the loss of my interest in the industry or the actual routines in the industry. I know it's the reality but everytime I step inside the doors of each company and feel the atmosphere then feel nothing but dread, I always tell myself that there are other options, other choice. With that, I tried to do my best but still, it feels like I can't take the next necessary step. Thus, I think I'm ...

December 20, 2014 last last night in my dreams, there's a shining entity, powerful...he is above me and told me that I was chosen, that I was needed. That's not exactly His words but I feel overwhelmed and scared of the opportunity....but mostly, it was overwhelmed. I was suddenlt transported in a place, peaceful and met with group of people who welcomed me. I saw two things in the sky. The other onw was like a moon with a face and the other thing is like a statue or more like an emblem, appearing side by side with the so-liked moon. I was escorted and taught of a few things. Being alone and new, I was scared...that was me at first when I don't know what to do and unfamiliar with the things around me... I was awake all of a sudden then said that in that awakeness that what I dreamed is similar with a prophecy that other person have seen.. I can't recall everything anymore...then someone from the group who welcomed came in my room and told me to believe him...he guide ...

November 1, 2014 Masyado ko ng aba minamadali ang panahon para magkaroon man lang ng puwang sa mundo o talaga nga bang pakiramdam ko e nawawalan na ako ng tamang oras at panahon. Nakakalito talaga. Thinking that you alone are the one who will make your life into what you wanted to become and being clueless about the process will be a neverending scare. Nakakasura kahapon, hindi ko alam pero ininterview ako sa isang BPO company pero more on staffing and recruitment firm siya. I was asked a lot of questions by the interviewer and in I don’t know the longest 20 minutes or so of my life, I didn’t even received a smile or a friendly glance from her. I mean, you’re gonna experience those kind of treatments inevitably pero if you yourself are being friendly and trying to build a rapport, the rapport could not work when the other person does not allow it or wanted it. All I can sense is the irritability or annoyance of that woman and patuloy ang pagkunot ng noo at pag *tsk niya at pagtaas...

You'll get easily inspired and then as if in that instant, you can do anything in this world. You feel as if, you exactly know what you want to do in life but as time passes by, you will be back again in that shallow living, shallow world. You want to fulfill anything that inspires you to do but you will be dead in the tracks, let yourself be hindered by any possible challenges, as if the fire burned with inspiration was drowned by litres of water.

August 15, 2014 How will I begin my life? I've got a lot of things that I wanted and not wanted to happen in my life. One thing that I don't want to happen to me is what happened to my mother- stayed at home, do whatever that is practical and be full of inhibitions and dreams that cannot be achieved because of the simplest reason of being stucked with her mother. I don't want to regret the things that I've never done and be just the one watching with whatever that's happening (good) with my best friend. We dreamed together and there she is, wishing me to have a life, while she is little by little, starting her life. I want to achieve my dreams: to genuinely travel, to earn a lot and let my mother join me in my travels, learn more things, be a part of something, to have a doctor degree, to build a home for my parents, to live in a nice townhouse, to travel, to taste foods - lots of them, to meet my idols, to live my life, to publish a book, to help reduce depress...

I realized that there has been a lot of moments that I tried skipping inspirational quotes when I see one. I tried so hard not to read the motivational words posted by someone who have in the most place to quote it. I feel like a person in a terrible situation or on a terrible start that I don’t want to be affected by others who have moved on, who have every rights to share a moving and motivating quotes. One reason is I’m sick of it and I want to atleast make an action before opening up to another motivating quotes orwords of wisdom from someone else. December 10, 2014 For the past few months, every night, I was like expecting something to happen. I want to be prepared with something that I don’t even know. Maybe I am preparing for a sleep with full of dreams. I sometimes imagined that during those nights, I was transported to some place and I was meeting someone very special and doing things that I really wanted. I often have this warm feeling when I was dreaming and a little...