Day by day, I am becoming convinced that we are living in the future.

November 1, 2014

Masyado ko ng aba minamadali ang panahon para magkaroon man lang ng puwang sa mundo o talaga nga bang pakiramdam ko e nawawalan na ako ng tamang oras at panahon. Nakakalito talaga. Thinking that you alone are the one who will make your life into what you wanted to become and being clueless about the process will be a neverending scare.

Nakakasura kahapon, hindi ko alam pero ininterview ako sa isang BPO company pero more on staffing and recruitment firm siya. I was asked a lot of questions by the interviewer and in I don’t know the longest 20 minutes or so of my life, I didn’t even received a smile or a friendly glance from her. I mean, you’re gonna experience those kind of treatments inevitably pero if you yourself are being friendly and trying to build a rapport, the rapport could not work when the other person does not allow it or wanted it. All I can sense is the irritability or annoyance of that woman and patuloy ang pagkunot ng noo at pag *tsk niya at pagtaas ng kilay. Dominating ba. I was also applying with almost like the same position as her and based on the job description, you’ve gotta be patient and understanding. What she actually doing is definitely not patience and understanding. Parang she is more of showing off with her English oral communication skills rather than connecting with me. That’s really unprofessional. Choz. People, the way you talk to other person will actually affect how the other person answers you. Nagpadominate ako don sa tao kasi obviously, I want to have a job and surely, I’ve gotta please her. Hindi man niya sinasadya na ganon pero imbes na kilalanin niya yung applicant, ang nangyayare, she let the applicant says or thinks of answering that will eventually please her and that is totally not me. I understand na whatever happens, you must stick to yourself pero oh well, wala eh, parang nablangko utak ko and mutter whatever comes into my mind and didn’t even organize it before answering. Being nice is not that difficult and it always pays to be nice so sana, I felt good about what happened tomorrow if she just approach me nicely and I will be grateful to her but instead, hindi siya nice, eto ako, feeling ko ang bobo bobo ko.