Eccentric Soul

“ I have work to do, and I am afraid not to do it. ” —  John O'Hara

Book Review: Days of Blood and Starlight by Laini Taylor Rating: ***** (5/5 stars) “Once upon a time, an angel and a devil fell in love and dared to imagine a new way of living—one without massacres and torn throats and bonfires of the fallen, without revenants or bastard armies or children ripped from their mothers’ arms to take their turn in the killing and dying.  Once, the lovers lay entwined in the moon’s secret temple and dreamed of a world that was a like a jewel-box without a jewel—a paradise waiting for them to find it and fill it with their happiness. This was not that world.”   I'm one of the many who thought that this book was so much better than the first one. The story in was mind blowing and Taylor's writing became more and more beautiful (I mean, those prose?) when there's no romantic moments between Akiva and Karou  (not that I'm being offensive), the environment was cool, I can actually smell the sandcastle where the chimaera were stayin...

“ You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm. ” —  Colette Source: Goodreads

I am currently updating and merging my book reviews (from goodreads), blog posts (from tumblr) and random words, thoughts and texts (from random notepad, msword, notebooks tho not all) and post it all here just to make this blog alive and to (hmmm) have a single and solid blog this time. I was always so laaazy to write in my journals (sorry promises, you were really meant to be broken) and decided to really (just really) have A blog. I always strive to be a writer but there are days that I haven't written a sentence or a phrase (ha! goodluck for that ambition). But y'know, there are always dark days and days that you will just feel so lazy and do nothing at all and days that you feel so turbo-lized to do everything (sounds bi polar isn't it?). But me having a blog is something that I needed right now. My thoughts for the past few months are really disturbing and so confusing, having no one to actually listen to me ('coz they are all busy) and my reservations about actua...

Book Review: Cruel Beauty (Cruel Beauty Universe, #1) by Rosamund Hodge Rating: ***** (5/5 stars) This book was a beautiful rendition of the fairytale - Beauty and the Beast. Though nothing beats the original, but this book is just so wonderful. 

Leaving me with my own thoughts will be a bad idea. I mean in my situation right now, my thoughts are eating me, my frustrations are building up and the craving for some outdoor activity is just leveling up any minute but right now, I cannot do something to challenge my feet for an outrageous adventure and adrenaline pumped activity so maybe I'll do the "traveling by the seat of my pants" thing and believe that sooner or later, the real adventure will be knocking on my window. If the world will be all about those petty money and industrial activities or things like that, my soul will be weeping with its emptiness of such things but of course, reality isn't all about those things, gosh, the time I have for knowledge and new characters and stories, and those friends and adventure.... yuh, books are the most amazing company and world you'll have.

Book Review:  Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage  by Haruki Murakami  Rating: *** (3/5 stars) "You can hide memories, but you can't erase the history that produced them.”  I always love Murakami's way of writing. He paints the settings of his stories effortlessly and even it was already cliche when it comes in creating his characters, it isn't tiring to read and everytime, he always makes them interesting. Murakami always makes his novel solemn, so soulful and at the same time, there is always a sense of liberation.

In a very sense of a word, you're a loner, yet the silence you hunger you have driven the pavement self motivating, not succeeded you want knowledge, different words and ideas but when you knock it on your mind, didn't absorbed it, lazily knocking the glass in desk, frustrated, didn't understood what to do. Knowing knowledge is power yet you can't give in to the knowledge given you would rather deliver words rather absorbing new words I'll be damned, I'll try again tomorrow

Well, I am still in the state of unemployment. I declined the secretarial job in a supermarket near our home so.... yeah, unemployed. But I don't regret letting that opportunity slipped away because I know that I don't really want it and might end up being regretful doing the job in the end. So here's what happened, I was going to take an exam the day (it was the day after the final interview) when Mama called and told me that a friend of my sister ask her to send my resume to her for the position of HR in a big company. Hearing the name of the company, I hastily said that I want there and not in the place that I was in the moment, waiting for the exam to happened. In that day also, I have to go to a clinic and have a medical exam after that, requirements were hence, a job waiting for me. But I backed out, after taking the aptitude exam, I told the HR that can  I take the medical exam the other day and no contract was asked for me to be signed yet. I was terribly confused...

Book Review: Shadowfever (Fever, #5) by Karen Marie Moning Rating: ***** (5/5 stars) “Some people bring out the worst in you, others bring out the best, and then there are those remarkably rare, addictive ones who just bring out the most. Of everything.  They make you feel so alive that you'd follow them straight into hell, just to keep getting your fix.” Wowwww. I can't believe that I read this series just now. I won't even read it if not for someone who recommended it. Tho I know that some of the covers of the series can be misleading but hey, "Don't judge a book by its cover." KMM have created a fascinating world ("See you in Faery!") and have developed characters that grows on you more and more when you read them on and on. You won't believe that a woman like Mac will be more than just a pretty face and a barbie girl, but Dude, she is really fierce!! I love her! And Jericho Barrons is a type of a male character that you always want...

Book Review: Dark Fever (Fever #1) by Karen Marie Moning Rating: **** (4/5 stars) Well the perks of reading a series late is that you can read it continously and doesn't have to wait a year or two for the next book to be published. Ha! But of course that I became lazyyy to write a review because I don't feel like stopping, update sooner and write a review about it. I mean come on, right after reading the Bloodfever, I want more of Barrons and Mac! Anywayyyy. I was always fascinated with the world of Faery that's why this series will be an amazing read for me. This first book is quite confusing but you'll get a hang of it. The narration was great even though at first I was kinda annoyed because it confuses me but as I said, I've got the hang of it. The Fever Series was about the story of Mac - a sidhe seer, her real identity unknown to her until her sister died and murdered in Ireland. She went to Ireland - her parents disagreeing - and found that her si...

Sometimes, I just want to cuss all day out of frustrations

Terminal stage IV lung cancer patient miraculously cured by cannabis oil - NaturalNews.com (NaturalNews) An Australian woman in her mid-50s recently posted a YouTube video explaining how she has eliminated her stage IV lung cancer with cannabis after being given a death sentence of six months with no treatment. Her oncologist suggested chemo as an option, but it wouldn't cure her cancer. It would only prolong her life a few months with chemo side effects.

Sometimes, it was the fear that stops me in going but it should actually pursue me to continue doing it. Gildarts in Fairy Tail once told Natsu that: " Fear is not evil. It tells you what your weakness is. And once you know your weakness, you can become stronger as well as kinder." People often make fear as a negative emotion, a very intense and sometimes a feeling that other people use to make themselves bigger - throwing fear to others to make them weak and make it an opportunity to kick their dignity and that would give them pleasure, they will think that they have some sort of power. That was a sad thing, and with that, we must learn how to fight with our fears and be on control with ourselves. With fear sometimes, we were under the impression that the situation must be stopped, to give up and lose hope but really it was something that should be a sign that you are aware of your weakness or your limits and that would be a step to surpass your limits and turn your weakness...

So eventually I was scheduled for a final interview today. If passed, I will take an online exam and if it goes well, I will be a store manager secretary. So yeah. So the company is a supermarket, a retail supermarket to be precise. I dunno....I will try to do my best and whatever happens, happen. Wish me luck, reader.

Book Review: Undivided (Unwind, #5) by Neal Shusterman Rating: **** (4/5 stars) Undivided is the last book of the Unwind dystology and it ended in an unexpected turn of events. Well, this is really different from other series. On the middle of the book, I thought there will be no change, there will be no hope...I mean, it almost tear me apart reading the events that follow...that was really frustrating. But of course, there will always be hope and hope was given to the readers on its ending. The book started with almost no change of situation but then within the ending is a fast paced turn of events so you really need to buckle up and ready your tissues. I really love the characters here even the antagonists, even though they are really frustrating, you just can't hate them. That is because even though they are really bad that it makes my head hurts, they are good with being bad and Neal Shusterman have written them well. And of course, you will just love and love our ma...

So today, I will attend an interview (first interview of the year. Ha!). It is a secretarial position for a mall here in batangas (oh yeah, reader, I am from batangas city). Well, I was referred by a friend to a friend so I can't see why not give it a shot? Since I will be having a self review for the upcoming board exam, I will try to find a job here in batangas first. However cliche it is, I will try to do my best (choz) to try and try and do more actions. Sooooo yeah, let's see what will happen. Anyway, I just posted something in instagram and post it here too (that's the picture above, ahuh) so.... 2015 - a fresh start. Oh gosh, I am claiming that this year will be better. No expectations though, just pure hope. 

Book Review: Unsouled (Unwind, #3) by Neal Shusterman Rating: **** (4/5 stars) Just when I thought that I could see a bright path ahead for my beloved characters in this dystology, I end up frustrated in the middle of it, more and more creeped out but good thing, this book ends in a hopeful light in the words of Sonia. You can still see the haunting issue of Unwinding and I am afraid that the revelations and the situation of this is far from getting better and it's just getting worst here. This book still continues the journey of our heroes: Connor, Risa and Lev, faced with new decisions and situations towards with their prime goal: to stop the unwinding. Of course, the evit intent of Proactive Citizenry (shitty) organization is still on a move towards a darker creation, which leaves Cam a possible and terrible fate but I still believe that the pureness of his own soul will save him (I really hope). Connor and Lev, still being followed by the government and juvies, with th...

2015 is a sign for a fresh start. Last year, everything was so fast, everything was running wild and it was sad that I was like a stone in the middle of the year - immovable, unchanging, just letting the events flow while standing still. Sucks. Frustrating. But I've learned a lot. After graduation was a big question mark, a long running thought play and a never ending squirming and anxiety. I tried finding a job (7 interviews, 3 job offers) and unfortunately, after interviews, I failed to be called or I failed to attend the second call. That was my mistake, I let myself be driven with the loss of my interest in the industry or the actual routines in the industry. I know it's the reality but everytime I step inside the doors of each company and feel the atmosphere then feel nothing but dread, I always tell myself that there are other options, other choice. With that, I tried to do my best but still, it feels like I can't take the next necessary step. Thus, I think I'm ...

December 20, 2014 last last night in my dreams, there's a shining entity, powerful...he is above me and told me that I was chosen, that I was needed. That's not exactly His words but I feel overwhelmed and scared of the opportunity....but mostly, it was overwhelmed. I was suddenlt transported in a place, peaceful and met with group of people who welcomed me. I saw two things in the sky. The other onw was like a moon with a face and the other thing is like a statue or more like an emblem, appearing side by side with the so-liked moon. I was escorted and taught of a few things. Being alone and new, I was scared...that was me at first when I don't know what to do and unfamiliar with the things around me... I was awake all of a sudden then said that in that awakeness that what I dreamed is similar with a prophecy that other person have seen.. I can't recall everything anymore...then someone from the group who welcomed came in my room and told me to believe him...he guide ...

November 1, 2014 Masyado ko ng aba minamadali ang panahon para magkaroon man lang ng puwang sa mundo o talaga nga bang pakiramdam ko e nawawalan na ako ng tamang oras at panahon. Nakakalito talaga. Thinking that you alone are the one who will make your life into what you wanted to become and being clueless about the process will be a neverending scare. Nakakasura kahapon, hindi ko alam pero ininterview ako sa isang BPO company pero more on staffing and recruitment firm siya. I was asked a lot of questions by the interviewer and in I don’t know the longest 20 minutes or so of my life, I didn’t even received a smile or a friendly glance from her. I mean, you’re gonna experience those kind of treatments inevitably pero if you yourself are being friendly and trying to build a rapport, the rapport could not work when the other person does not allow it or wanted it. All I can sense is the irritability or annoyance of that woman and patuloy ang pagkunot ng noo at pag *tsk niya at pagtaas...

You'll get easily inspired and then as if in that instant, you can do anything in this world. You feel as if, you exactly know what you want to do in life but as time passes by, you will be back again in that shallow living, shallow world. You want to fulfill anything that inspires you to do but you will be dead in the tracks, let yourself be hindered by any possible challenges, as if the fire burned with inspiration was drowned by litres of water.

August 15, 2014 How will I begin my life? I've got a lot of things that I wanted and not wanted to happen in my life. One thing that I don't want to happen to me is what happened to my mother- stayed at home, do whatever that is practical and be full of inhibitions and dreams that cannot be achieved because of the simplest reason of being stucked with her mother. I don't want to regret the things that I've never done and be just the one watching with whatever that's happening (good) with my best friend. We dreamed together and there she is, wishing me to have a life, while she is little by little, starting her life. I want to achieve my dreams: to genuinely travel, to earn a lot and let my mother join me in my travels, learn more things, be a part of something, to have a doctor degree, to build a home for my parents, to live in a nice townhouse, to travel, to taste foods - lots of them, to meet my idols, to live my life, to publish a book, to help reduce depress...

I realized that there has been a lot of moments that I tried skipping inspirational quotes when I see one. I tried so hard not to read the motivational words posted by someone who have in the most place to quote it. I feel like a person in a terrible situation or on a terrible start that I don’t want to be affected by others who have moved on, who have every rights to share a moving and motivating quotes. One reason is I’m sick of it and I want to atleast make an action before opening up to another motivating quotes orwords of wisdom from someone else. December 10, 2014 For the past few months, every night, I was like expecting something to happen. I want to be prepared with something that I don’t even know. Maybe I am preparing for a sleep with full of dreams. I sometimes imagined that during those nights, I was transported to some place and I was meeting someone very special and doing things that I really wanted. I often have this warm feeling when I was dreaming and a little...