Eccentric Soul

Is it really that bad to limit yourself and choose people whom you can be attach to? I mean, I'm kind of a person who needs a lot of effort to make a companion and I've got to make a lot of effort to make a person to be close to me and I am the one who must talk first and I'm not kind of a person who was being approached to. I don't have much pleasing personality to be entertained and that much pleasing personality that a stranger in a bar can say "Hi" to me and chosen to be a number 1 friend. I don't have much benefits to them and it sucks that I'm not good at impressing a person at first sight. Well. Yeah. Right now, I only have 7 friends that I am close to now college and not all of them I can trust much but I am attached. I mean, I have 37 classmates  right now and only 7 of them are my friends. The rest of my classmates are there staring at me sometimes like a stranger. I can get to know them. I can be close to them that's IF, and only if I...

Facebook suddenly become the "Banatan" capital of networking site. All the quotes, corny or whatever words were again posted into their wall as their status. Obviously, Google is their primary search engine for the words they posts and other sources like Tumblr, Twitter were the secondary. I have nothing against it because I can unfriend them anytime and it's social networking site and it's their own profile so they can post anything they wanted to post. It's just a little annoying when those words were again and again posted here and there. So what's new? But I just don't know what's the benefit of posting "banat" like that in their wall which is already used by others, they are making banat throughout the news feeds without a consistent recipient of their words. They might as well post it to their own special someone rather than posting it on their own wall as their status. Yea, it might be more acceptable if those words were going to b...

Sometimes, my complete lack of sense of humor managed to gain hatred to others and from others. I don't know, is it really bad to be serious sometimes? I'm so tired of making their completely immature schemes as humor, it was really injustice. I might as well go back during the Dark Era rather than talking to them with their greatly uttered bullshit. I don't know if I'm gonna make myself called as a true friend anymore if all the time I have this hidden rage on every words they spit. I just don't care anymore. I don't think that they are very much compatible of being a true friend. Seriously.

The clock is ticking. I feel a little pressure with the creepy sound of it. It's more louder than anything right now and all I just wanted to do is to keep it somewhere far so that I couldn't hear it anymore. But I don't want to waste any effort on it, it's just a clock and it will never hurt me physically. The dogs continue to bark as I sat here staring at the monitor with my non sense and easy words, trying to make something and challenged the way I write these days. I've been napping the whole day and only good words made me awake but unluckily, I have no inspiration to spit out fantastic words from my mind and type it here. I'm so sorry for my ambition of becoming a writer... I have a long way to go and hopefully, it will not stay as an ambition. I need to do something about it but I have to learn first. Someone says that it does not matter how slow you go as long as you don't stop. I'm very slow on things like eating, to thinking, in fulfilling and ...

I think, I should stop updating my personal issues in tumblr and might as well update it here in blogspot. I just got tired of using tumblr. From a reblogger on the year 2009 and half of 2010, to a personal blogger till present, I just don't get the people there and they are revolving to someone I can't consider as familiar. There might be a reason that I don't have much friends in that site aside from the fact that I'm an antisocial shit, it's just that most of the people there are not as real as they are and I don't want to make friends on fake people. Anyway, I need to update this. I need to make myself open this blog site everyday, that's a promise. And I will never talk about this topic anymore and from now on, I'm going to blog about things that really concerns me, interest me, very relevant and really something about me. JSYK, obviously, it's a personal blog again..